I truly believe in taking chances and these chances can be small, or big but regardless; they will leave you changed in one way or another.
They may show you a side of yourself you didn’t know existed or you may help somebody else see a side of themselves that they were not aware of. You may even regret these chances, but the motto I always live with is to experience something full on rather than spending the rest of your life wondering what could’ve been.
My chance started out of the blue while I was on vacation for a week in a tropical place. I had that initial gut feeling that something exciting was going to happen and the unknown is what made it even more fun. I saw him from afar sitting at a table, surrounded by a group of friends. We made eye contact and inside I had that feeling again that the exciting thing would be him.
We hit it off after the first night of talking together. The chemistry was unbelievable and the things we had in common were surprisingly bizarre. He called me his “kindred soul” so I will refer to him as “S.K.”. Regardless, at this point I figured not much could come of it, this would probably be a random hook up story and that’s the end of that. Or so I thought. He made me laugh constantly and had the witty sense of humour I love. His ability to quickly come up with hilarious things to say had me hooked and I lost all initial gut feelings. This encounter was even more mysterious than I had thought, I was falling for him by the minute and by the day but was afraid because our time together would be limited.
What we both did then and there was jump in with both feet and made every minute & second count. We lived in the “now” and did not worry about tomorrow. Although previously we had been strangers on vacation, we shared our most intimate thoughts & experiences with each other.
In one of our “heart to hearts” he shared with me his inability to fall in love as he described himself as “emotionally detached.” I believe that through our experience I made him see himself in a different light. To me, he was the opposite of that, he smiled whenever he saw me, held my hand every second, kissed my forehead when we were standing in the ocean or laying in bed and brushed the hair away from my face. I told him that he was not emotionally detached but needed to find that someone to notice those things about him and to accept and love his sense of humour.
He had never felt that before.
I don’t have an answer as to whether us continuing to talk or see each other may or may not lead us somewhere. Life proved to us time and time again that taking chances can be very rewarding. If you’re willing to take that risk I say to always jump in and have no regrets. Your kindred soul, friend or just future boyfriend/husband can be out there but without jumping in you may miss that opportunity to experience something surreal. And if life is not measured by the breaths we take but the moments that take our breaths away, those moments definitely never failed to take my breath away.